Saturday, June 30, 2007

...sunday is my favourite day of the week...



Mom called just now. I am going to pray, despite the condition of their hearts at home right now...I am going to pray. Pray along with me will you?

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...recovering from vanity...


I woke up today to see an endless blue sky stretching across my windows. My windows are of the same breadth as my whole room, with no curtains to block any of the view. It's not surprising then, that when I wake up, it often feels as if the whole universe has been watching me. And I am glad that it doesnt bother me a bit. I am in love with the blue sky and all the green trees planted in front of the opposite church...I am in love, too, with the fact that university is starting in about one month... that finally I have recovered from my sickness... that I am going to start running again... God IS the ONE who has been behind all this and if not for HIM I dont think I would even be here right at this moment. Years ago, Jared told me it was HIM who was in charge of the bird-care business; now, I think I have understood what he meant. But I am no longer in touch with Jared, of which I have no regrets...The LORD is big enough to take care of us both. The LORD has His plans.


I will be out this afternoon.



He who loves his life loses it, and he who hates hislife in this world will keep it to life eternal. If anyone serves ME, he must follow ME; and where I am, there MY servant will be also; if anyone serves me, the Father will honour him. (John12: 25-26)



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Friday, June 29, 2007

...bread for the journey...


I feel that right now I have too many things on my plate. If I continue at this rate and give all of you my full attention, I would burn out again. The truth is, I am really concerned about many things. ( ...the fact that I am going to love 18 more people and make them a part of my life... is enough reason for me to shut away from the world right now in order to get enough strength).


He has been knocking on my door for the whole of today...I dont think I can refuse Him any longer... I cant keep at being unnatural any more...going against His will is unnatural...If I look into myself long enough I can even feel my heart crying out to get into His healing presence...yet I havent been doing what is right.


So I will take a break to review what I have been doing, and to hear from Him for the journey ahead... I have rested, now I need to know which way to go...


I will be back with a larger heart and a clearer mind. I will be back and love you with the love He shows to me. I will be back to tell you about it...


I am not quiting.


I dont quit!


I just need a little more time with Him.


One last thing,


Remember, I love you.

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...Better than light...

I wont need to explain myself...

But I must confess it hurts. It doesnt help that I have given her so much of my attention and so much of my heart and so much of my prayers... It doesnt help that I am 19 years old acting as a teacher, a sister, a mother...

Will my prodigal ever come home?

And I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year
'Give me a light that I might
tread safely into the unknown'
And he said to me:' Go out
into the darkness and
put your hand into the HAND of God
That shall be to you
better than light and safer than a known way'

From the Poem 'God knows'



Last night we had late night tea. I had the opportunity to tell my long story yet once again. What you have done to me how can I ever forget?

How could I forget His love
How could I forget His mercy
...
He satisfies
my desires...

I know I owe my parents a letter. I have already promised you to write it. I am sorry for the procastination! There are many things happening right now in my life which deserve a proper record, and which my parents deserve to know. Whenever I think of where they are, my heart is stirred by a desire so indescribable, a longing so deep that I am moved to tears. The LORD has a plan for me to be there one day...I know it I just know it and how I love preparing myself right now for it.

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Thursday, June 28, 2007

...and so we rest in His eternal glory...

I am so glad the LORD is allowing me to rest for the past week...I am learning to slow down, to be still and to let God be God... The resting has been wonderful...I will be back to the normal routine next week, being well-fed by the nourishment that comes from the author of life! Thank you LORD My heavenly Father who loves me beyond all measure and gives His Son for my sake...Thank you Father...

Debby came in the afternoon to bring me porridge and Vitamin C...the type which wouldnt pass out as 'expensive' urine...hahaha thank you LORD you have your hands and your feet the body of Christ all around me to uphold me and to bless me with so much comfort and strengthening...I have been fed and I have been rested in your presence thank you Father for this life in your Spirit...

So I will look for you and find all things in eternity...How I love these moments of revelation, these moments of looking to you and seeing your face... You have called me to be obedient...you never said it would be easy, and I know it wont be...but it is going to be worth it I know...thank you..your truth nothing can defy....

So I will come boldly today to the throne of grace, asking for help in this time of need even if, even if I find myself in the midst of 20 teenangers whom I hardly know...but you told me to pray for them so that is what I am going to do...Everything is going to work out, just like how my JC years all worked out to the very end, just like how I could go to university...all those miracles that I have witnessed, with all your people around me...I will cling onto it...

I learnt today that UNBELIEF is the root of all sins....but by faith I shall enter the LAND OF YOUR PROMISE and take hold of the inheritance, not just for me but also for the people who will hear me....thank you O LORD ALMIGHTY, the ONE and ONLY true GOD....

So I will turn in today in peace, so I will pray and love, and care, and stop worrying...Just like Daniel?

JUST LIKE DANIEL!

And we know that God causes all things to work together for the good of those who love God, who have been called according to His purpose. For those whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, so that He would be the first born among many brethren; and these whom He predestined He also called; and these whom He called, He also justified; and these whom He justified, He also glorified.

Romans 8:28-30

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...eternal...

We know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. For those whom He foreknew, He also predestined to become conformed to the image of His Son, so that He would be the firstborn among many brethren; and these whom He called, He also justified; and these whom He justified, He also glorified.

Romans8:28-30

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