the living sacrifice

Lord, I want to be thankful that You have put me in charge of this concert even though I am so new to this whole thing. Lord, we dont have a theme. We dont know how the performers are going to appear on stage. We havent had our first rehearsal. And through all the audition rounds we have sensed that there is such a huge inertia among the smartest and most talented children. Lord, You know that our purpose is right, that only want to bless those who participate and those who come to be entertained. You know that I set out doing this only hoping to know more of the children and to show them that we arent here to make life miserable for them, but to give them a sense of direction, and if possible, hope. Lord, You know my heart.

You have caused everything to progress up to this stage. And I have asked You to bring only the right people--people who have a reason, known or unknown to them, to do what they are going to do. Lord, it is Your concert and if You want it to turn out glorifying to Your Name then You are going to send us the right emcee. You know what sort of an anchor we need--You know what atmosphere we need to project to loosen the children's angst and prejudices against boarding events. You know, Lord and we need You to help us.

Lord, we are coming in Your Name so show Your hand to us. And if I dont see Your hand then teach me to trust Your heart. You know what the management thinks about this whole thing and You know how I feel about it, too. Sometimes I just feel like exploding like a bomb but I am going to choose to stay sane for You and for the kids. Could You please help me to regain my peace and cool about this whole thing.

Please grant me a heart of a servant. When are we going to see the Strange Attractor? When are we going to look past this chaos and to see the pattern of Your plan, which pulls us together for something we would love to be in? I am going to wait wait wait.

Every time I pray I move the hand of God.