...struggles...
Teacher, the feeling has gone, the sense of wonder has passed. I am afraid I am once again the same self. I fear nothing has changed. Perhaps I merely lack the capacity for faith.
I would go with you on Sunday, if I thought it would make any difference. I have been to churches, and services, and they simply fail to touch me. I do not see why this will be any different. Mayhap it's not my time to convert yet?
Your words have troubled me. It goes right down to the foundations of my beliefs. The arguments themself are not new, but it is evident to me that you fight for them with such faith and conviction, which sadly, most apologetics lack. It is disturbing to me to see someone with such faith. Confused earlier, I might have argued and offended. I ask for your forgiveness for any offense I might have caused, though I'm sure you might have already forgived or overlooked it.
What you believe is truly beautiful and staggering in its scope. An existence of a God and His involvement in human affairs would change my life. I don't think I'm ready for such a change yet. I am not sure if its caution or dread. I'll think on it. I might change my mind. If I do, I'll give you a call ,or send an email to you. Once again, I apologise for arguing against you. It was rather childish and we only went in circles. The time would have been better spent listening more closely to what you said. Surely God is so much greater and above such nitpicking that I stooped to.
PS: I'll keep to the time table, teacher. ^^ I'll tie up the loose ends and keep up. Pray for me that I don't fail. I can't wait for the Os to end, I intend to perform at gigs when the holidays come. It'll also be a good tiime to catch up on my reading and my drumming. I don't think I'll ever be able to live without reading, honestly.
I hope to remain friends with you even as you go on to university. Like the book you lent me said (paraphrase) ''Every different friend brings up a different aspect of you.'' All too true. Good
Night. Xavier.
posted by Anna @ 3:09 PM
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